these past two weeks have been crazy. filled with double the amount of exams than i have classes-- how does that even happen? along with tests and reading assignments quizzes, there have been meetings and deadlines and emails to respond to. i have felt that for the past two weeks i have simply not stopped moving. for some reason i've been constantly reminded of the importance of being still. being still in the midst of a crazy life can sometimes seem impossible, or just not an option but i think it is ever so important. i don't think that i can describe the feeling of being still-- not that i have perfected it by any means-- but i have certainly tried to find rest and peace when things around me are out of my control and i cannot keep up. it feels good and serene and real.
i have been making an effort for the past month to spend time alone with God. to learn to be still and at peace with his plan for me. on wednesday night, while taking a study break from patho i walked out of the library, in front of the lake to the beautiful chapel on Loyola's campus to go to a prayer meditation service called Taize. it felt nice just be to out of the library, but it also felt soothing and peaceful to talk to the Lord, lift up the things weighing on my heart, and be still. every Taize i have been to has started with singing of "be still and know that i am God." i love that. i often am not still, because i want to plan and i want to know what will come next and what will be. the quietness and peace in the chapel somehow gives me the strength and courage to know and understand that i am little. and more importantly be ok with that littleness. i cannot carry my burdens alone... neither can you. we are only human and our world is busy and complicated and out of our control.
i want to be still and know that He is God. and he is good. and that is such a blessing.
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